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So feeling kinda shitty today. Didn't go to class this morning, the first time and probably the last. Thought i might catch up on my sleep after a late night. Well no one told those guys doing construction on my building. So i didnt end up getting much more sleep than usual. Oh well. Things are still going here. I'm still trying trying trying to kick my ass to get better at German. Its really hard. And its so easy to get discouraged and almost give it up. Obviously everyone here is better at German than i am because they're Germans. So there really isn't any logical reason why I should let myself get discouraged when everyone is a way better speaker than i am. I'm just sick of asking a question in German and then getting a response in English. And i'm sick of waiters and waitress pulling out the menu and pointing to the thing they think i just ordered. I know i haven't even been here for a month yet. Hell not even really 3 weeks. So there is still plenty of time to get my German up to par. But its so difficult. Especially when i don't really have any German friends here. I'm totally submersed with all the foreign students all the time. I find myself spending most of my time with the other Americans here and the students from the U.K. So of course we're going to be speaking English. Which is unfortunate. So i haven't really had a chance to speak German casually with someone who is a native expect for my teacher during class. I know i just have to keep a positive attitude. I know that i am going to be meeting loads and loads of awesomely cool native speaking Germans when the semester actually starts on October 19th. I just have to use this time wisely to get my grammar up to where i want it to be. I'm trying to do at least an hour of studying every night apart from my Hausaufgaben. My German Professor back in New Paltz is really supportive and offered me some of her words of wisdom regarding getting down the Deutsch, which have been incredibly helpful. So i guess the plan right now is for me to study my grammar every night, watch plenty of German movies and English movies with German subtitles (a new thing i tried and its really helpful), practice my speaking with reading exercises out loud, try and improve my vocab, and seek out opportunities to speak German right now during the pre-semester, and not get so nervous when i do it. So that when the semester really begins i can blow everyone away with my German skills. Thank you internet you are an amazing sounding board.